perspectives

Sometimes it's all about seeing the bigger picture...



[images taken from NASA's hubble space telescope]

i) globular cluster - swarm of ancient stars in the milky way
ii) helix nebula
iii) "x" structure at the core of the M51 whirlpool galaxy
iv) comet impacts on jupiter
v) backwards spiral galaxy

..."a moat of dust suspended by a beam of light"...

when i go down

cause at the end of the day you can only really count on one...

when i go down - relient k

i'll tell you flat out
it hurts so much to think of this
so from my thoughts i will exclude
the very thing that i hate more than everything is
the way i'm powerless to dictate my own moods

i've thrown away...so many things that could have been much more
and i just pray my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no, that's not the way it works

when i go down
i go down hard
and i take everything i've learned
and teach myself some disregard
when i go down
it hurts to hit the bottom
and of the things that got me there
i think, if only i had fought them

if and when i can
clear myself of this clouded mind
i'll watch myself settle down
into a place where peace can search me out and find that
i'm so ready to be found

i've thrown away...the hope i had in friendships
i've thrown away...so many things that could have been much more
i've thrown away...the secret to find an end to this
and i just pray that problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no, that's not the way it works

any control i thought i had just slips right through my hands
while my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
reprimands me
then and there
i confess
i'll blame all this on my selfishness
yet You love me
and that consumes me
and i'll stand up again
and do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
as i exhale, i hear Your voice
and i answer You, thought i hardly make a noise
and from my lips the words i choose to say
seem pathetic, but it's a fallen girl's praise
because i love You
oh God, i love You
and life is now worth living if only because of You
and when they say i'm dead and gone
it won't be further from the truth

when I go down
I lift my eyes to You
I won't look very far
cause You'll be there
with open arms
to lift me up again
to lift me up again

all at once

I thought I knew you but maybe I never did.

maybe someday I'll understand

It's past midnight and I can't sleep...too many thoughts running through my mind..story of my life really. Maybe there's nothing to lose and maybe there's everything to lose.

Io voglio dire ma io ho paura.

Trust me - The Fray
...we're only taking turns
holding this world
it's how it's always been
when you're older you will understand

and then again maybe you don't
and then again maybe you won't

when you're older you might understand

When you're older you might understand.

for now

vienna - the fray

the day's last one-way ticket train pulls in
we smile for the casual closure capturing
there goes the downpour
here goes my fare thee well

there's really no way to reach me
'cause I'm already gone

only so many words that we can say
spoken upon long-distance melody
this is my hello
this is my goodness

there's really no way to reach me
'cause I'm already gone

maybe in five or ten yours and mine will meet again
straighten this whole thing out
maybe then honesty need not be feared as a friend or an enemy
this is the distance
and this is my game face

there's really no way to reach me
'cause I'm already gone

so this is your maverick
this is vienna.